Sometimes I ask my GOD, "what's YOUR plan to me?" I just can't take the positive thing from it. Along of my life, I try to be the qualified one, so I joined with several competition, write and read more, study hard.. And what I got? this suck thing.
I though that YOU never change someone's life if he/she didn't try to change it. GOD, I have do something in my life. I though YOU know that I always all out when I am on work. I give all that I have, my time, power, knowledge, etc.. But what I got? I never measure everything from money, status or something like that. I just want they respect me. Including YOU, is it wrong?
I know as YOUR creature I can't refuse what do YOU want. Who I am? I know my life is imperfect anymore. I know it.. Am I wrong if I want the best for me? I think everyone have same hope as me.
It really influence my life at all. I want run, leave this fucking condition. Wish it would over. I don't want this fucking condition make me act badly and ask about YOUR existence.
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